30 Day Challenge-Day 13

“you had me holding on another time and place”

Day 13-Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.

I don’t think there is one place that I would not like to visit. I love to travel. I also feel like any time I get bored, it’s time to move again. Here I am, in the apartment I’ve lived in for two years and I’m ready to start over again. I want something different; something that will interest me. I want to be able to experience life.

I used to think myself an adventurer but anymore down here I feel like I have become this timid person that is scared to try things. Don’t get me wrong,  go off on my own a lot, but have I really explored nature around here? No. I could blame it on the snakes, but I honestly think it’s the unknown that is stopping me. I don’t know the area, animals, or plant life. This place even after two years is still new to me. I don’t think I have the right to call myself an explorer for the moment until  I can get back in my groove.

I wonder if this life is conducive to starting a relationship or even a family. I used to say that I wouldn’t mind living in my hometown as long as I was able to travel a lot. I think that moving around isn’t a bad thing. Then again, I think sometimes I might just be running away from my problems trying to start new again; something I never had the luxury of doing growing up.

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30 Day Challenge-Day 12

“I’m only here because I want to twist the structure of my average day.”

 

Day 12-Bullet your whole day.

  • Alarm started blaring at 5am
  • Did not get out of bed until 530am
  • Shower
  • Make coffee
  • Make lunch
  • Put on clothes
  • Rewind, iron pants
  • Turn on straightener
  • Blow dry hair
  • Straighten hair
  • Walk down outside
  • Put dog on crate
  • Brush teeth, put on DO, and body spray
  • Turn off lights and lock house
  • Drive to work and arrive at 700am
  • Highlight progress reports
  • Begin teaching at 800am
  • Lunch at 1115am
  • Lunch Duty at 1140am
  • Leave work at 330pm
  • Hang out with dog
  • Update blog
  • Leave for date 530pm
  • Arrive home for date  ??Time unknown??
  • Put on Pjs
  • Sleep

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30 Day Challenge-Day 11

“Please don’t stop the music”

 

Day 11-Put your iPod on shuffle and list the first 10 songs that come up.

1. “To The End” – My Chemical Romance
2. “Everybody’s Fool”-Evansecence
3.”I’m in Love With A Girl”-Gavin DeGraw
4.”Fully Alive”-Flyleaf
5.”Untitled”-Simple Plan
6.”Who Knew”-Pink
7.”Twenty-Four”-Switchfoot
8.”Time of Your Life”-Green Day
9.”Jenny Was A Friend OF Mine”- The Killers
10.”Her Eyes”-Pat Monahan

 

 

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30 Day Challenge-Day 10

“But I’ve got to be free.”

 

Day 10-Discuss your first love and first kiss.

 

Oh boy. My first love and first kiss.

Let’s start with first kiss. That is the easiest. His name was Jason. There was a semester or year, I can’t really remember, that I played in the concert band because I felt like it pretty much. That is where I met Jason. He was one of those guys who took band but did not want to be labeled a band geek so he took concert band. Either way, he wasn’t a popular kid… or attractive really. By spring time he ended up joining track because, oh yea, I did track. We dated for three months? Then, I got bored and dumped him. Maybe for another guy that ended up breaking my heart. Anyways. My first kiss was with Jason at his mom’s house. We had just finished watching Resident Evil. He did the whole I want to do something but I’m not sure how you’ll react. I’ve heard this line so many times in my life now… let’s be honest. Everyone knows what you want to do. You’re just wasting your own breath by this point. Then he kissed me in the bedroom. I’m pretty sure I was sitting on the floor and he was on the bed so he kind of rolled toward me or something like that. I was 15.

He was a sloppy kisser and I wasn’t really all that upset when I dumped him. It was just time. Last time I heard anything about him…  he was still living in our hometown, with a kid, not married, and probably, I think, working at the mill if he had any job at all.

First love… hmm… I guess that would have to be Tony. Tony and I dated on and off again in high school. If I had to pick a high school sweetheart, he would have been it. We were inseparable when we were together but also a deadly force together as well. Sometimes we just ran hot and cold.  I was happy and he was happy until we weren’t. Right before I left for college, Tony tried to get back with me. I refused. I knew where I wanted to be and I knew where he wanted to be; those two paths were not headed in the same directions. I know I hurt him when I said no, but it was for the best. We reconnected a year or so ago. He married his childhood crush and he is still living near his hometown with no plan on moving. Exactly where I knew he would be.

Tony was only a season in my life, just like Jason was. I am still waiting for the love on my life and where that will take me, but since both of these gentlemen, I, myself, have come a long way.

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30 Day Challenge-09

“Once you’re in the air, there’s nothing you do
but let go.”

 

Day 09- How you hope your future will be like.

 

Ahh… well let’s see. In the very near future, I will have my master’s degree. From there I want to keep working and honing my craft. I would love to be able to write a novel and have it published. I think that I can do that while still continuing my teaching career. I love writing and in the past few years I’ve strayed away from it and I think I am ready to get back on the horse again.

In the extended future, I want to find a husband, house, and eventually a doctorate. I would love to be teaching at a university.  I want to have a family of my own, and an awesome career. Am I asking too much? I don’t think so. I love what I do and I want to continue doing it no matter.

I hope that Claire keeps growing and being happy. I hope that the cancer stays away and I can see every great moment in her life. I know I will have kids of my own and a family of my own but I will always love my Claire. She will always have a special place with me no matter what.

I don’t want to say that having a guy in my life will make me happy but I think that it would be okay if I was alone. I think ideally, like most people, I want the family life. I want to share my life with someone and grow old with. Do I need children? No. I could adopt some, become a foster parent, and if all else fails, my siblings have kids and I can be the cool aunt.

Overall, I see my future as happy no matter what path I take as long as I work hard.

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30 Day Challenge-08

“& she lies in the grass staring up at the sky,
                  wondering what happened to her life.”

 

Day 08- A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

 

A moment I was most satisfied with my life. This is hard. This shouldn’t be hard, right? This should be easy. I think for a lot of people it might be when they met their significant other, the day they got engaged, they day they were married… babies. What are my life achievements so far? College, job, pursuit of graduate degree. I feel like these might not count. When I visit home, I love spending time with my niece but I don’t feel there. It’s not my home. I feel out-of-place and just a visitor. 

I think that the moment I felt most satisfied with my life was when I was offered my job. I felt validated. I felt like finally there was someone who wanted me and believe in my ability to teach children. I was so happy. Claire wasn’t sick yet so I did not have that weighing on me. I felt like my life after being at a standstill for so long was finally going somewhere. I know that this satisfaction moment will change eventually but for now this is what it is. This was the moment my life started.

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30 Day Challenge- 07

“sometimes living in a world like this,
it’s pretty hard not to go insane.”

 

Day07- Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

 

My sign is Sagittarius.

Sagittarius Traits: Frank, fearless and generous, the Archers or Sagittarius are a different set altogether. Many of them tend to remain in their own worlds, immersed deeply in culture, intellectual and creative pursuits, travel and self-appreciation. Lovers of freedom, they tend to be independent and supremely confident. Some of these strong traits, however, may border on to eccentricity or tactlessness in Archers. Candid as they are, they pride themselves for being able to call a spade a spade. However, this attitude may hurt people, or at the very least, turn into embarrassing situations. They may also be perceived as crude, boastful and inconsistent, thanks to their overly energetic, wavering minds.

Positive Qualities of Sagittarius: Generosity, Altruism, Candour, Fearlessness, Self reliance, Love for nature, Love for travelling .

Negative Qualities of Sagittarius: Overconfidence, Bluntness, Brashness, Inconsistency, Lack of concentration, Overconfidence

 

I think that this description of Sagittarius very much explains who I am or at least who a part of I am. I love to travel, being creative , different cultures, and I am always lost in my own world. It is strange because I also always say that I will tell it how it is; no use beating around the bush, which is apparently a trait. I have been viewed as crude and boastful before. I think that overall this does define me.

I have never really believed in this stuff. Don’t get me wrong, I still check my horoscope sometimes just to see what it says but I don’t like by it. That is just not me. I like this though.

 

P.s. Sorry for the hiatus…. life happened? Time to play catch up.

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