“But I’ve got to be free.”
Day 10-Discuss your first love and first kiss.
Oh boy. My first love and first kiss.
Let’s start with first kiss. That is the easiest. His name was Jason. There was a semester or year, I can’t really remember, that I played in the concert band because I felt like it pretty much. That is where I met Jason. He was one of those guys who took band but did not want to be labeled a band geek so he took concert band. Either way, he wasn’t a popular kid… or attractive really. By spring time he ended up joining track because, oh yea, I did track. We dated for three months? Then, I got bored and dumped him. Maybe for another guy that ended up breaking my heart. Anyways. My first kiss was with Jason at his mom’s house. We had just finished watching Resident Evil. He did the whole I want to do something but I’m not sure how you’ll react. I’ve heard this line so many times in my life now… let’s be honest. Everyone knows what you want to do. You’re just wasting your own breath by this point. Then he kissed me in the bedroom. I’m pretty sure I was sitting on the floor and he was on the bed so he kind of rolled toward me or something like that. I was 15.
He was a sloppy kisser and I wasn’t really all that upset when I dumped him. It was just time. Last time I heard anything about him… he was still living in our hometown, with a kid, not married, and probably, I think, working at the mill if he had any job at all.
First love… hmm… I guess that would have to be Tony. Tony and I dated on and off again in high school. If I had to pick a high school sweetheart, he would have been it. We were inseparable when we were together but also a deadly force together as well. Sometimes we just ran hot and cold. I was happy and he was happy until we weren’t. Right before I left for college, Tony tried to get back with me. I refused. I knew where I wanted to be and I knew where he wanted to be; those two paths were not headed in the same directions. I know I hurt him when I said no, but it was for the best. We reconnected a year or so ago. He married his childhood crush and he is still living near his hometown with no plan on moving. Exactly where I knew he would be.
Tony was only a season in my life, just like Jason was. I am still waiting for the love on my life and where that will take me, but since both of these gentlemen, I, myself, have come a long way.